It's been a while since I put my feelings anywhere but my head. It's been a confusing time. I had a sexual encounter with Bill. It was a mistake. I knew it before we even got started. I couldn't wait to leave when it was finished. I must have looked like I frightened child.
And then there is the matter of Draco. I can see him making an effort, but I still don't trust his motives. I mean, all of a sudden, he wants to be my friend. Why? What is his agenda? I've been thinking about him a lot over the last couple of days. I can't seem to get him off my mind. Waking, sleeping... I've been having those dreams again. I don't know how to stop them, without a potion, and I'm not certain that I would even if I could. Isn't that odd?
I'm tired, so I'm going to take a shower and change out of these work clothes.